For years, I thought that commanding the room meant being the loudest, most polished and impressive version of myself.

And no wonder; after all, that’s the narrative we’re fed as women. We’re trained to perform palatability. Expected to be assertive, but never intimidating; confident, but never arrogant; smart, but never too bright; attractive, but never distracting.

We are told to bring our whole selves to work, only to be instructed to tone ourselves down. Do not be emotional. Do not be too opinionated. Do not take up too much space.

Commanding the room as a woman is not a neutral act. It often feels like a dance between proving our worth and avoiding the accusation of being full of ourselves. Research shows that 80% of women feel pressure to overperform at work, and far too many brilliant women find themselves burnt out from the silent labour of performing confidence rather than being allowed to embody it.

What I know now is that true presence does not come from performance. Commanding the room is not about projecting perfection. It is being grounded, regulated and unapologetically true to yourself.

Even experienced leaders struggle to communicate effectively when the stakes are high. Under pressure, they abandon presence and slip back into performance.

The moment that taught me this happened in a room full of women, the first time I told the truth about my mistakes and lessons in business. I was terrified of being judged or rejected. I was raised on a diet of ‘fake it till you make it’ and ‘never admit wrongdoing,’ so telling the truth about the many times I had failed felt dangerous.

Yet, instead of pulling away, the other women leaned in. Afterwards, they surrounded me. Your honesty is refreshing, they said. I could see myself in your story. Thank you for sharing it.

In that moment, I realised something I had missed for years. Influence is not about perfection. It’s about resonance.

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